Genius Glitch

Enlightening conversation

Last evening, I had the pleasure of talking to one of my sane friends (one that I call when I have clearly gone insane and need to be brought back) and we touched on the subject of long distance relationships and he said something to me that made so much sense (the proverbial light came on) He said something to effect of distance is distance, either you can get there or you can’t. ( In reference to my “The Dating Game” entry.) I took from that that if the foundation of the relationship is strong to begin with then it’ll work wherever its participants are located. This man should be a doctor. He’s filled with so many truths and bits of wisdom and knowledge. I’m glad he’s my friend. Anyway, currently I’ve been analyzing a few situations in my life and my findings are bit troubling. Y’all, I think I need a serious “tune-up”. Today I went through several emotions seemingly all at once and I was in daze. I was at this store and I couldn’t remember the drive there. It was weird.
Speaking of friends, I have been thinking about this one friend I had a while back and how I haven’t heard from her in while. I’m going to try calling her or sending her a letter because she helped me through a crazy time in my life and I will forever love her for that. In fact I’m going to get on that right now. Y’all forgive me if I take a break from blogging for a couple of weeks. I feel like I’ve been hit by a Mack truck and need some recuperation time. There’s poetry in the works always so keep an open eye. I also have hopes to have photos available soon.

God Bless!!!
Nikki J.

The Dating Game

For me dating seems almost impossible. I have a tendency to like people that aren’t in my immediate zip code not to mention state. It never fails. Perhaps because my job keeps me on the go I can’t seem to get the dating scene down. So, I’ve hung up my dating hat. I’m all about becoming friends. Friendships are easily stretched across the miles whereas dating may not be as easy.
Once you’ve developed a friendship with a person, I’ve found that a trip to where they are or vice versa is too easy to facilitate. Let me tell you, there is a wonderful sense of gratitude when you get up with someone that you have been talking to but haven’t seen a in a long while. I’m not talking about those fair weather friends either. I’m talking about that friend that you can call at the drop of a dime and know they will have a listening ear; that person that can sense in your voice or see in your behavior that something is not quite right. Even in a crowded room you can sense their presence with ease.
Now I don’t know about you guys and girls but that sounds pretty nice. A lot better than meeting someone then having to leave and you have yet to get to know them so you don’t really know what they are doing when you are not there. Gaining friendship cuts that worry and anxiety out. My mother tells me what is meant to be will be and there isn’t anything you can do about it. I know I’m guilty of purposely sabotaging things because I think I know how it’s going to turn out and I don’t like it. Yes I know this is stupid but it’s what I used to do. I say used to because I’m not doing that anymore. It wasn’t really until recently that I discovered the damage that stuff does. I went through a two week period of no sleep and it wasn’t because the baby was keeping me up either. It was because I was trying to make myself not feel a certain way about someone because I thought I could change my feelings. Not possible. You feel how you feel regardless of what you may want. You have to accept it. You may not like it but that’s life. You take the good with the bad and keep going. The good will always prevail. Life’s way too short to be playing the dating game.
I say if you like someone tell them. You may not get another chance.

My God Bless!!!
Nikki J.

Another great experience

Since I've recently sworn off dating (We'll talk about that some other time)...my son accompanied me last night to the best concert I've attended in a while. Yolanda Adams, J Moss, and Nuttin But Stringz performed last night and it was awsome. David, equipped with some ear muffs to protect his ears but still enjoy, had a wonderful time. He even tried to sing along. It was great. If you enjoy Gospel Music, her concert is where you want to be. Nuttin But Stringz consists of two teenage brothers Damien and Tourie Escobar. They may dress in "urban" attire, but when that bow hits the string on their violins you know they are so much more than that. David was enthralled by their performance. J Moss did his thing as well. I'm telling you it was just an awesome experience.

Be Blessed!!
Nikki J.

...and he was dubbed the mini "Bus"

My son and I are out a lot together and we just so recently were amongst some co-workers for an extended amount of time. All of which are football fans. Little to my knowledge my son bears a striking resemblance to NFL Running Back Jerome Bettis, # 36 of the Pittsburgh Steelers. Now, I haven’t been into football in over six years. I mean I may catch the Super Bowl when I’m in the country so I wasn’t sure how great the resemblance was. So, curious, I did a little searching on the old trusty internet and came across a few photos via the following websites: www.washingtonpost.com/.../ A4848-2005Jan12.html
www.kosmo.com/blogs/ TimsBlog/2002/01/ and lo and behold, there’s a mini “Bus” in my home! Here are photos for your opinion.

God Bless!!!
Nikki J.

Friday's

It just so happens to be Friday 13th. Well it went just as I expected which not how I had planned. I had hopes of catching a movie but apparently waiting until 10 till 8 to call the person you want to watch the movie with isn’t a good idea because they already made plans with someone else. Go figure. Anyway, I decided to delve into the old movie collection and came across The New Guy. Now, when I originally seen this movie it was hilarious to me. Not tonight. I watched all of 15 minutes of it and decided since the baby is happy beating things against one another I have a perfect opportunity to work out. So I did. I must say I feel great. There’s nothing like a good work out. I should definitely do it more often.
Life’s been throwing me a lot of curve balls lately and I have trouble enough hitting the straight ones. I’m certain though that all these rough times are leading me to a better place. It’s what you go through that gets you where you are going. Well, I have to convince my son that play time is over and he should go to bed.

Until next time

God Bless!!
Nikki

Well, I was busy...

I completely agreed with Vice in that last week was the longest week ever! I only have to work four days this week and next which is great. Then I will have one more week before this school that I am in is over. Things have been going well I have a 96 average in my little course I’m taking. I guess I’m happy with that considering the effort or lack thereof that goes into this course.
My son is doing great. He is eating food now. I mean it all like puree and everything but he eats it nonetheless. He really enjoys his bath time (I really hope that continues). He just loves to splash water everywhere in an effort to retrieve his ducky. We’ve also had a few diapering incidents, some of which required a few articles of clothing to be discarded and instant baby bath time. One never knows what they will find when opening a diaper. It is frightening and times let me tell you. Oddly enough his first word babble was “da da” I say oddly because I have seen him since February or heard from him since August 10th. I’m bitter to say the least because he lied to me by saying he would be there or at least help out. Eh, oh well. He’s the one missing out on getting to know his handsome son.
My latest accomplishment, I’ve lost 23 lbs since I've been back to work! I’m so happy. I might actually make it down to a size six again! My, my, it feels good! Well folks, it is lunch time and I’m going to have a fake meat hamburger. (This is if my bread is still edible)

Take it easy whenever possible.

May God Bless!!!

Nikki

So it's the 2nd of January

So it's 10 a.m. and we're getting ready to head to airport to pick up a friend of mine. I have about 20 minutes so I decided I'd tell you about my first day of 2006. It started off alright. I was able to sleep until about 8 a.m. My son woke up so, I spent about 10 minutes trying to convince him to go back to sleep. It didn't work. So I proceeded to get up and get the both of us cleaned up for church.
We go there on time amazingly. The sermon was titled "Unfinished Business" and seemed to be geared directly at me. Seemingly the case when you haven't been to church in a while. I seen a few people I knew. David enjoyed the choir and then fell asleep right before the second offering. It's now 1:30 p.m. and we said our good-byes and headed home.
Later we called my sister and my parents to wish them all a Happy New Year.
Then we couldn't fight it any longer. We actually did stay up to ring in the new year and the Z monster was attacking us. It won. I think someone called and I was supposed to called them back. That never happened. Whoops!
We both woke up starved. I cooked some grub earlier and D was content with some cereal. We proceeded to lounge the rest of the evening. It was great. I agree with Vice, 2006 holds great things. I too learned a lot about myself and others in 2005. I also began the greatest job of my life, motherhood.

May 2006 bring you all great blessings!

God Bless!

Nikki J.