Pandemonium! This describes my life right now. I’m having serious issues focusing on one thing and going with it. I’ve been busy being lazy and eating things that are going to make me fat. I have anxiety about everything. I still have to fulfill my roles as a mother, a soldier, sister, daughter, and friend. Sadly the latter has been suffering. I need a friend myself. If it hadn’t been for those who have called and checked on me this past week, I don’t know where I would be, probably in therapy. The only thing I can seem to focus on is writing. Perhaps if I continue to write about my woes I’ll slowly be able to focus on what I need to do get things in order. Pray for me!
A Stressed Mess,
Nikki J.
So tonight I decided to treat myself to a movie. (Part of that tune-up I said I needed, spending time with me to figure out again exactly who I am and what I am to do with myself.) I picked “Something New”. I must say it was a great choice. It made me feel many emotions and even made me ponder that long sought question, what is love? More so, what does it feel like? I often wonder of the people I’ve told that I loved them did I really? Each one made me feel different. Wouldn’t love feel the same across the board? Are there special circumstances? A good friend of mine described how she felt when she met her now husband; her heart beat a mile a minute and she could hardly breathe let alone speak to him at first. I thought to myself, hmm? I’ve felt this. Just read “Falling”. Who’s to say this is what all love feels like. Who’s to say it isn’t. Will I ever know? I guess I’ll sleep on it. I’m going to try to make the 7:45 service in the morning.
God Bless!!!
Nikki J.
The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Team
Just trying to help out my friend Cara. She has volunteered to run in a 26.2 mile marathon in June to help raise money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. Her goal is to raise $4000 and complete this marathon in 4 hours. Please check out her and her teams website and if so compelled, donate what you can to support her efforts. If you have friends that you think would be interested in supporting this cause please forward the following link to them. Thanks!
Nikki
I was very disappointed in Super Bowl XL. Not only were the referees not doing a good job, they did it blatantly. I’m not even going to rant about the calls they made and the ones they did not. Super Bowl XL was four and half hours I will never get back. Let’s not talk about the 2.5 million dollar commercials that were so stupid I actually did use the commercial break to go get more food and go to the bathroom. (If you ever have a Super Bowl party, I suggest doing it like the host of the one I attended. The game should be on in every room of the house to include the bathroom.)
On a different note, this weekend my Grandmother was hospitalized after going into a coma as a result of her diabetes. Please send a prayer up for my Grandmother. She’ll be 81 years old on June 12th. She and I haven’t seen each other since she moved to New York about five years ago to live my Aunts. I hope David and I will be seeing her soon.
Well, I must continue getting ready for class. Have a blessed day!
Nikki J.
Well y’all, it’s Super Bowl Sunday. If I had to pick one of the two teams playing, I’d have to go with the Pittsburgh Steelers. Now, I won’t quote stats and I probably only know one team members name, but it should be a good game. Not just because it’s the Super Bowl, but because David and I will watch it with friends. Of course we’ll be eager to see what the commercials will amount to as well. You would think something is wrong with paying millions of dollars for as little as a 30 second time slot to advertise something that’s probably not good for you any way. However as, Americans we have come to accept this. I won’t even get into the amount of money today’s football players are getting paid in contrast with those men and women serving their country who may not be able to even watch the game because they are fighting for their life with more than likely insufficient equipment and supplies in a far away land with a harsh environment. So as you sit down to watch the game with your friends, family, and loved ones and the National Anthem belts out through the speakers think of the men and women who put their lives on the line so you can enjoy the game you are about to watch. Say a prayer for their safe return home.
God Bless!!
Nikki J.
All I can say is... Percocet. I'm on it. I feel alright right now.
God Bless!!
Nikki J.
Do you ever wonder why things work out the way they do?
I know I sure do. Especially when the situation seems a bit messed up. Well I’ve come to a conclusion. I think that one’s life is already written from conception to death. Were just trying to figure out what it is we are supposed to do while were here. This is where we make tons of mistakes. However, once you figure out what you’re supposed to be doing everything is cool. People get put into our life for various reasons. Some are to keep you from going down the wrong road and others are there to help you find your way back from a bad path you may have slipped onto. You don’t really realize it until they have gone away though. Also, I feel that Déjà vu is a kind of sign that you are on the right path. I have Déjà vu a lot so I take that as all the bad stuff along with the good brought me to the point which I’m remembering already have done. So I have to be thankful for the good and the bad because it all brought me to the point I am supposed to be at. So if things just don’t seem to be going the way you envisioned them, there’s no need to worry. You’re on the right path. Remember you have to go through it to get to it.
*dismounts soapbox*
Have a blessed day
Nikki J.
Something about a critter that comes up out of the ground and is either scared by his shadow or not to determine if there'll be six more weeks of cold weather. Okay. What that has to do with meteorology I will never know. Well the old friends are coming out the woodwork. Last night a friend I haven’t seen since 2000 calls me up. I was elated to hear from him but he’s from Louisiana. Now, that’s not bad, he just has a thick accent. I’m going to have to tell him slow down the next time we talk. Today I got an email from my friend I grew up with. My condolences go to her in the passing of her grandmother and congratulations are due for the birth of her nephew also named David. Speaking of her, she just called, been on the phone 87 minutes catching up. Talking with old friends just make the day a little brighter I tell you.
I also got an email from a classmate from high school whom I haven't spoken to since high school. I guess 2006 is going to be a year of reunion with old friends.
Y’all take care. I must go play with my son.
Blessings to all
Nikki J.
Wednesday feels like Monday! I’m so tired. I don’t know why I didn’t sleep last night but I didn’t. My phone rings at like 10:46 p.m. I was like, No, Way!! It was a text message. But it was one that was sent like 5 days ago. The network must be really slow. Because I was half asleep it took me a little while to figure out that the text was from five days ago.
My son is 7 months old. He’s growing so fast. He so close to crawling and then I will be thrilled because I’ll have to chase around and hear him giggle when I catch him and give him a raspberry on his cheek.
I got an email from an old friend whom I hadn’t heard from in six months. It was nice because I often wondered what had happened to him. I also started planning my summer road trip. D.C. here I come! I seem to be babbling so I’ll just say this…
I have two more weeks of school, I’m not too excited about the people I’ll be in this new class with and I miss my old class a lot.
Be Blessed!!!
Nikki J.