The poetic skills have returned! A new posting can be seen on my webpage on or about 4 Nov 07 depending on how soon the webmaster can get it on there, LOL. I know he's a busy man so just bare with me and the hardworking webmaster. I hope you enjoy.
Take Care!
At some points you are on top of the world, carefree if you will. However, in a matter of seconds your life can change forever and if you're not strong it can bring your life to what seems like a screeching halt or you may feel like you are right back where you started from. For each action there is an equal and opposite reaction and let me tell you they are not all golden. I thank God for my family and friends. I don't regret anything that has happened in my life and it may have taken me two or three times to figure out some things, but it's all made me a little stronger and little weaker. I surely can't do it all alone. The hardest lesson I have had to learn is to understand that you can't change other people. I've been told many times I'm too nice. Well I don't know how to mean. Yes, I've made poor decisions that have hurt others and even a few that have hurt me. But I’ve grown. Am I happy with my life right now, no, but I am grateful and thankful that I have it. I've learned I can't find happiness in others until I find happiness in myself. In saying all that, I have decided that the world should get a chance to hear my story, learn from mistakes. I figure if my story helps one person make a more responsible choice then I will leave this earth a happier woman. I've finally met some new friends here in the Aloha state and in talking with them I know that what I'm going through isn't a first time thing. Either my newfound buddies have gone through it or know someone who has. In hearing their stories I draw strength and desire to get back to things I used to do before my life changed with the very first incident. I am a writer, a speaker. I'm the one that cheers up gloomy days. I love music and nature. But most of all, I love being a mother. I stopped and just took notice of my son one day. The way he looks at me as his source of knowledge and direction just brings to me a high level of satisfaction. Though there are deeper things that make feel unhappy most times, I think of my son and I go on and eventually I will be that ray of light to every one again. I'm in the process of writing a novel tentatively titled "My Sunshine in the Storm". It will be based on my poem "Victory". I hope to have a snippet available for my fans early spring of 2008.